Sometimes you meet someone that will change your life completely. If you are prepared to step into the unknown and let them guide you, you might just find what you've been looking for.
A while ago I read my horoscope on FB and for some reason I decided to post it to my profile. In short it said that I should be prepared to meet someone that will change my life as I know it. My response was: Bring it on - I am ready. Little did I know, just how quickly it would come by and how profound this change would be.
It is hard to explain the how's, the where's, the why's and the who's... actually the "who's" aren't that difficult, because I know exactly who this person is. It can be a frightening thought, to think that a person like this, really can and want to be a part of my life. The frightening part is that I need to be take that journey into my "self" to find the real Marié. The Marié that has been trying to get out, but got booby trapped by herself and didn't think she deserved to come out and show just what she has to offer, to shine with the blinding light of a thousand stars.
People often say to me: You're such a nice person. What I think is: Yeah right, I am just not good enough, not nice enough, not worthy of being loved. If I did this and this better, then maybe I'd be OK. In fact, I have never thought of myself as being OK, just the way I am. I always thought, that if I was more outgoing I'd be OK, if I was thinner, I'd be OK, if my legs looked like Cindy Crawford's, then I'd be OK, if I had long wavy hair, I'd be OK... I can go on and on and would never get to a point where I can say: now I am OK. Why? Because I do / did not feel that I am OK.
This is the start of my journey - to find Marié, to accept that I am OK, exactly the way I am. I deserve to feel good in my own body and I deserve to have a healthy body. I deserve to love myself for who I am and for all that I have to give. I don't need a boyfriend/husband to be accepted, I have to accept myself for myself. It might not come easy, but I know I have the support of people who love me.
This journey also comes with a warning - I am getting rid of the negativity, the things and people who drain me. No matter how much I care for you or what your relation to me is, if your presence, your attitude, your words and your actions drain me, I will need to let you go.
You can take my hand and follow me, or you can stay where you are and see me walk away into the light.
Je t'aime.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Summer Holiday
It has been a while since I last posted and to be honest, I have to admit that I almost forgot about the blog - Sorry! LOL
A lot has happened in the mean time, but I won't get into details about all of it. I have sent the children off on their annual 3 week summer holiday with their father. This is the last week without them and I do miss them. On the other hand, I have been very good to myself and have made sure that I took some time for myself, to just relax, read a book and go away for a couple of days. That way I don't miss them all too much.
The first week I did almost nothing *blush* except maybe for some cleaning, which was needed too. I managed to have a date - a boring and quite disappointing one to say the least, but on the other hand I had some nice food left afterwards and the apartment was cleaned properly for it ;o)
I also went to Copenhagen for 4 days and really enjoyed meeting up with some wonderful friends and making some new friends as well. At the moment there is an Elephant Parade in Copenhagen with the cutest elephants in different places in town. Elephant Parade Here are some of the elephants I liked the most:
On Friday it was rainy and I had no real plans, so I headed off to the movies to get out of the rain. I decided that I wanted to see The Tree of Life with Brad Pitt (always a favorite) and Sean Penn The Tree of Life. It was a very abstract and heart pulling movie. Although at one point I was ready to leave, because it felt like the only thing that we saw was all kinds of nature phenomena, which left me a bit disappointed. A big part of the movie had these clips of underwater photography of waves, volcanic outbursts and something that reminded me of Mandelbrot set Mandelbrot_set. Beautiful, but also difficult to figure out what it had to do with everything. In the end I realized that the whole theme was about God and nature etc. Far too religious for my liking, but the message of how parents affect their children's lives and outlook on life did touch me deeply.
I have also started reading again. It feels like ages since I have sat down to read a book. I have finished the Danish book Vesten for Månen, by Jane Aamund and have started reading The Old Man and the Sea, by Ernest Hemingway. I got hooked on the idea of reading his books again after seeing City of Angels the other day. They mention A Movable Feast in the movie and although I have read it many years ago after I have seen the movie, I still want to read it again. I ended up buying the book in Copenhagen last week.
A funny thing happened in the book store that day. I was looking at the English books, especially Hemingway's books and had to decide which book to buy. Two young Danish guys stood next to me looking at books, I presume, since they've been in the shop and at all the same shelves I was. I did not pay much attention too them, other than the one was standing very close to me. I had to giggle to myself, when the one next to me sighed as if he's been holding his breath for a while and said to his friend (in Danish): "She smells like coconut!" LOL I didn't say anything, but looked up at him when I turned around to go and pay for the book and smiled ;o) his ears went bright red! LOL
I can surely say, a trip to Copenhagen does wonders for one's self-esteem ;o) and I am planning on going there more often ;o) What a blast!
A lot has happened in the mean time, but I won't get into details about all of it. I have sent the children off on their annual 3 week summer holiday with their father. This is the last week without them and I do miss them. On the other hand, I have been very good to myself and have made sure that I took some time for myself, to just relax, read a book and go away for a couple of days. That way I don't miss them all too much.
The first week I did almost nothing *blush* except maybe for some cleaning, which was needed too. I managed to have a date - a boring and quite disappointing one to say the least, but on the other hand I had some nice food left afterwards and the apartment was cleaned properly for it ;o)
I also went to Copenhagen for 4 days and really enjoyed meeting up with some wonderful friends and making some new friends as well. At the moment there is an Elephant Parade in Copenhagen with the cutest elephants in different places in town. Elephant Parade Here are some of the elephants I liked the most:
On Friday it was rainy and I had no real plans, so I headed off to the movies to get out of the rain. I decided that I wanted to see The Tree of Life with Brad Pitt (always a favorite) and Sean Penn The Tree of Life. It was a very abstract and heart pulling movie. Although at one point I was ready to leave, because it felt like the only thing that we saw was all kinds of nature phenomena, which left me a bit disappointed. A big part of the movie had these clips of underwater photography of waves, volcanic outbursts and something that reminded me of Mandelbrot set Mandelbrot_set. Beautiful, but also difficult to figure out what it had to do with everything. In the end I realized that the whole theme was about God and nature etc. Far too religious for my liking, but the message of how parents affect their children's lives and outlook on life did touch me deeply.
I have also started reading again. It feels like ages since I have sat down to read a book. I have finished the Danish book Vesten for Månen, by Jane Aamund and have started reading The Old Man and the Sea, by Ernest Hemingway. I got hooked on the idea of reading his books again after seeing City of Angels the other day. They mention A Movable Feast in the movie and although I have read it many years ago after I have seen the movie, I still want to read it again. I ended up buying the book in Copenhagen last week.
A funny thing happened in the book store that day. I was looking at the English books, especially Hemingway's books and had to decide which book to buy. Two young Danish guys stood next to me looking at books, I presume, since they've been in the shop and at all the same shelves I was. I did not pay much attention too them, other than the one was standing very close to me. I had to giggle to myself, when the one next to me sighed as if he's been holding his breath for a while and said to his friend (in Danish): "She smells like coconut!" LOL I didn't say anything, but looked up at him when I turned around to go and pay for the book and smiled ;o) his ears went bright red! LOL
I can surely say, a trip to Copenhagen does wonders for one's self-esteem ;o) and I am planning on going there more often ;o) What a blast!
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Gyldendal.dk - LIV & LYS
Gyldendal.dk - LIV & LYS
Another nice surprise today - I won a competition and this is the first prize! Don't ask me which competition it was, I can't remember LOL
Dansk højtidsmad af Marianne Storgaard (9788791415067) - Adlibris Boghandel
Dansk højtidsmad af Marianne Storgaard (9788791415067) - Adlibris Boghandel
Today I got this book as a gift from friends of ours. The recipes are from the author's grandmother's recipes. It was a family effort. Our friends made all the food and the models in the book are family members. It is a beautiful book and I feel honored to have received it. Can't wait to try out the recipes!
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Meyers brownie
kvinder.bt.dk: Meyers brownie
These sound yummy... but what about my poor tummy? LOL Will have to try it some time...
A girly party
Today we had 8 of the 11 girls from my daughter's class over for her birthday party. It went much better than I expected. I have to admit, that I was nervous about the whole thing *blush* It was the first time we held something for the girls in her class. Since she got her Princess book for her third birthday, she wanted me to make Jasmin's Fruit Palace and Snow White's mini cakes, so that is what she got this time.
We started with whole wheat buns, chicken nuggets, cucumber and carrot sticks, cherry tomatoes and sour cream as a dip and the girls tucked in, but when we brought out the Fruit Palace, they were in awe. They certainly enjoyed the fruits. This is what it looked like:
After doing their nails and playing with lipstick, it was time to decorate their own mini cakes. It was fun to watch the different types of cakes that they created. Some really went all out to make something creative, others just wanted whipped cream and sprinkles and some had everything on their cakes!
It was fun, but I am glad that there is at least a year to go, before I have to do this again ;o)
We started with whole wheat buns, chicken nuggets, cucumber and carrot sticks, cherry tomatoes and sour cream as a dip and the girls tucked in, but when we brought out the Fruit Palace, they were in awe. They certainly enjoyed the fruits. This is what it looked like:
After doing their nails and playing with lipstick, it was time to decorate their own mini cakes. It was fun to watch the different types of cakes that they created. Some really went all out to make something creative, others just wanted whipped cream and sprinkles and some had everything on their cakes!
See mom, silver sprinkles!
It was fun, but I am glad that there is at least a year to go, before I have to do this again ;o)
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Danny Krog aka Gworeth aka A Really Cool Guy!
I have some really cool friends and many of them have hidden talents and they deserve some exposure. One of them is Danny Krog aka Gworeth. I met Danny through a good friend a little over a year ago. Funny guy with a fantastic sense of humor =D
This pic as taken after a great birthday party in February 2011! Isn't he cute with the yellow hair? LOL
There is nothing wrong with Danny's imagination and his creative skills, or at least not that I know of... That is why I wanted to share his art with you. I love the details in his drawings and the descriptions he gives them. Have a look at this: Gworeth on deviantART
He also has some drawings published in this magazine Wayfinder #5
This pic as taken after a great birthday party in February 2011! Isn't he cute with the yellow hair? LOL
There is nothing wrong with Danny's imagination and his creative skills, or at least not that I know of... That is why I wanted to share his art with you. I love the details in his drawings and the descriptions he gives them. Have a look at this: Gworeth on deviantART
He also has some drawings published in this magazine Wayfinder #5
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Friend missing in SA ~ Sarel Strydom
I got some really bad news the other day - an old friend from school and "Voortrekkers" (Scouts) has gone missing in Pretoria, South Africa. Seeing his pictures after 20 years of no contact makes you realize just how fragile life really is. He still looks like the Sarel I know - just older. Missing Person - Sarel Strydom
In remember the first day I met Sarel on a camp in SA. The boys were swimming and as had hidden his clothes or swimsuit to everybody's amusement, which seemed to set a president for how things were to be from there on. I admit, we all teased him through the years, but he was such big a part of the Dolphin/Elephant group that it never was meant to be ill-taken. I sure hope he knows that.
I really hope he gets back home safely, and that he is alright wherever he is at the moment. I wish I could do more to help find him, but I he is in my mind and his family in my prayers.
Sarel - Kom huis toe, jou familie en vriende mis jou en is baie bekommerd!
In remember the first day I met Sarel on a camp in SA. The boys were swimming and as had hidden his clothes or swimsuit to everybody's amusement, which seemed to set a president for how things were to be from there on. I admit, we all teased him through the years, but he was such big a part of the Dolphin/Elephant group that it never was meant to be ill-taken. I sure hope he knows that.
I really hope he gets back home safely, and that he is alright wherever he is at the moment. I wish I could do more to help find him, but I he is in my mind and his family in my prayers.
Sarel - Kom huis toe, jou familie en vriende mis jou en is baie bekommerd!
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Disappointment and relief... that's the way life goes
Wow, what a busy day! After seeing the kids off to school, I came home and wanted to take a power nap and start on the cleaning, that didn't get done the whole weekend *blush* That power nap lasted 2 hours! Oops :o)
Anyway, after getting my coffee and checking my mail and FB, I saw that the local news station wanted me to contact them regarding a post I made on a piece they aired yesterday. I was fluttered (and maybe a bit flattered) and phoned them. All of a sudden I was in a cleaning frenzy to get this place fixed up, seeing as they wanted to come and interview me.
I have never been that quick to clean up this place LOL! They came and we used a lot of time on talking, setting up the light, the interview, finding pictures and being instructed into 'acting' - finding music, 'listening' to the music whilst looking at pictures from our holiday in SA in December 2009. I basically spent the most of my day getting preparing and being interviewed, just to get the phone call at 6pm, that they were not going to use it in anyway... Damn! I am disappointed and relieved at the same time. Disappointed that all that effort was for nothing, sort of - I got the place cleaned at least ;o) Mostly I am relieved, because it was a big step to have to go on TV and talk about the problems we're having with this visit and bringing these people into my home. So, in the end my 15 minutes of fame would have to wait. I am not in a hurry at all.
Always look on the bright side of life ;o)
Anyway, after getting my coffee and checking my mail and FB, I saw that the local news station wanted me to contact them regarding a post I made on a piece they aired yesterday. I was fluttered (and maybe a bit flattered) and phoned them. All of a sudden I was in a cleaning frenzy to get this place fixed up, seeing as they wanted to come and interview me.
I have never been that quick to clean up this place LOL! They came and we used a lot of time on talking, setting up the light, the interview, finding pictures and being instructed into 'acting' - finding music, 'listening' to the music whilst looking at pictures from our holiday in SA in December 2009. I basically spent the most of my day getting preparing and being interviewed, just to get the phone call at 6pm, that they were not going to use it in anyway... Damn! I am disappointed and relieved at the same time. Disappointed that all that effort was for nothing, sort of - I got the place cleaned at least ;o) Mostly I am relieved, because it was a big step to have to go on TV and talk about the problems we're having with this visit and bringing these people into my home. So, in the end my 15 minutes of fame would have to wait. I am not in a hurry at all.
Always look on the bright side of life ;o)
Monday, June 13, 2011
Quick Buns
These buns we also call "Turbo-boller" or Turbo Buns, because they are quick to make. I usually bake them at the same time I bake cracker bread, since the oven plate is still nice and warm after I took the cracker bread out, which means the buns are bigger than if you'd place them on a cold plate.
It takes about 40-45 minutes from the start until you have freshly baked buns.
It takes about 40-45 minutes from the start until you have freshly baked buns.
- 110 gr margarine/butter (I use about 80-90 gr margarine/butter)
- 300 ml milk
- 50 gr yeast
- ½ tbsp salt
- 1½ tbsp sugar
- 1 egg
- 550 gr Flour (You can easily mix in some 100% rye flour or corn mixes)
- Heat oven at 200 degrees C (hot air)
- Heat milk and dissolve the yeast in it. Melt the margarine in a microwave oven and mix into the milk/yeast mixture.
- Add salt, sugar and egg and mix it together with a mixer.
- Now add flour little by little, until the dough almost is not sticky anymore. (All of the flour does not need to be used.)
- Roll 18 balls and place on a baking tray and let is rise for 15 minutes.
- Bake for 12 minutes in the middle of the oven.
Lazy Monday morning
I woke up this morning with the kids jumping on my bed again LOL... they left me to snooze a little bit longer. I was in the middle of a dream, that I just did not want to let go. You know, one of those dreams where everything feels so real and nice ;o)
The kids are lounging around in the living room - E-L is restless and wants to skip rope, but does not want to go outside to do it without getting the rope caught in lamps and chairs! LOL... kids are funny that way sometimes. So far today hasn't had any unexpected phone calls or invites, but that means it is time to take a long hot shower, do some cleaning up and bake bread. E-L is also bugging me to finish making the elderberry flower syrup that is in the fridge. We love it, it is the best thing about Summer in Denmark - picking the flowers and making syrup from it.
Have a fantastic day everyone!
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Midnight thoughts
It is way past my bed time, but I am reluctant to go to bed. Why? Well, I don't know. Maybe it was because I needed to jot down some of my thoughts. Or it was the last coffee...
Sitting in the dark living room, with only a little bit of light coming from my semi-Christmas tree in the corner, I am listening to the kids snoring. Yes, they sleep in the living room on weekends and they enjoy it. I also enjoy listening to their breathing and snoring ;o) Most of all, it is nice to just listen to them sleeping.
We had a good day today/yesterday. We slept nice and late - they woke me up at 9:22 am with Adrian-Emil coming into my room, jumping on my bed and shouting: "Come on Mommy, you should get out of bed, you've slept way too late!" The sun was shining brightly outside and I thought to myself that it would be a wonderful day for a picnic! Sipping coffee in the living room, while checking my "oh so important" Facebook account and other dating sites, the phone rang all of a sudden! Not what I expected, since it hardly ever rings and I hardly ever phone people... to be honest, and most of you won't believe me - I don't like speaking on the phone. It has to be very important things that needs to be organized or it would be my mom or sisters in South Africa I'd phone.
So needless to say, I was a bit startled. Don't laugh, I still needed to wake up properly! It was a nice surprise though. My friend Jeanine wanted to know if the kids and I would like to go on a picnic with them and if we'd be ready in 15 minutes... Anybody that knows me well, would tell you that I need more than 15 min to get ready ;o) I tried to bargain my way to 45 minutes, but she won and got 30 min ;o) I rushed to get clothes for the kids, and get myself ready... No shower, sorry LOL... No foundation, just mascara and lip gloss and I am ready! This is why I love my hair - I quickly sprayed Salt water spray in my hair, dragged my fingers through it, a quick tease with the comb and then the Ozone killer - hairspray! Tada! I am ready!
We were ready within 20 minutes and she phoned to say they'd be here in about 15 minutes ... how did that add up? Never mind! I finally got to meet beautiful Linus and see Daniel again. Of course it was nice to see Trixie and Sven again too ;o) It took us a while to leave the parking grounds though, but when we got to http://www.hangaards-have.dk/ we were ready to get something to eat. The gardens were beautiful, the grass wet from the rain that came back and the rest of the visitors were about the age of ... well, a couple of years older than we were ;o)
The lunch was nice, the kids were hungry and happy to get something to eat. The cats did not get anything to eat from us! No, not at all... and then the rain came down! We were finished eating according to the weather man. That meant that we could go explore the gardens and the maze. I loved the roses! The kids loved the maze and I can't remember when last I played hide and seek, giggling and running around trying to not get caught by Sven, while Trixie did what Trixie does best - feeding Linus. It was a great day and my children loved it too.
My life is really good! I had a rough couple of weeks behind me and I still feel that sometimes you have to make decisions that break your heart, but you make them to keep your heart from breaking even more. In the end, I know that I have some fantastic people in my life. But I will get back to that another time.
I hope that my friends would like to follow this blog and find some inspiration in life together with me through my ramblings and sometimes random thoughts.
Love you all! Goodnight!
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